Me....

Yesterday....

My young daughter turned thirty!!

Yes.... the Big 3 -0!

With that birthday comes many thoughts.

For instance,

"How can I have a thirty-four and thirty year old children?"

Like that just does not seem possible.

When they were young and had no choice but to 

see me everyday, I hated when people would say,

"Enjoy it, it passes fast!"

Yeah, If it passes so fast them come here before I 

hurt these kids who just broke my favorite lamp

with a football, in the house.....

"When I just finished saying,

"Don't be throwing that football in the house!"

All kidding aside, I say it now as well

because the facts are, it does pass fast and

you will awaken one day to find that you really

are old enough to have these kids, who are now adults.

I still cry when I hear Stevie Nicks sing LANDSLIDE.

Yep, every time, it still catches me by surprise.

I am 56 years old, living the best life possible,

having found my place in the artisan world with the 

home portraits. I think of death more than I have in my whole life.

Not that I am afraid of dying, more afraid of the journey 

from point A to point B.

With that said, I find myself being very content most days,

other days stressed because I just can't spread myself any

thinner, but I go into the studio, brush in hand, audiobook on

and loose myself in the day.

If I had to explain myself in a sentence now that I am in the slide down

of my 50's, it would be the one above.

I believe I have always lived with an old soul

and sometimes pray, that whatever happens after this life,

we do get to do "life" again in some capacity

because....

I would like to have days again,

where every morning I have my own children looking 

lovingly at me saying,

"What's for breakfast, where is my school bag"