Everyone knows how I value my time with the grandgirls.

As they get older, they seem to have full schedules but when they

can come sleep, they still get excited.

If you follow my blog, you also know how much i work on

giving all three memories with Mumsie to last their lifetime.

Jolee is the quieter one of the three but

the most sensitive, does not get over excited like the other two

and is more apt to entertain herself with a book in the library or

a craft in the studio. She needs less stimulation

and when its time to go to sleep, she does not really want the cuddles

and won't request prayers and songs be sung to her.

Yet, i still do it and she does not resist.

If she is not too tired, she sometimes will even sing along.

Because she is too young for a phone and only has her

iPad when allowed, I rarely get any messages or videos from her.

So I was surprised last week when I received a video text from her.

It was Jolee in the car with her Momma and her sisters.

"Mumsie, the Ed Sheehan song you sings us at night is on the radio"

She then goes on to pan to her Mom... 

"Say hi to Mumsie"

Then goes to each of her sisters saying the same thing.

Then the radio plays the main part of one of the songs I sing to them

and she sings along with the chorus,

"...EVERY NIGHT I'LL KISS YOU AND SAY IN YOUR EAR,

OH WE'RE IN LOVE AREN'T WE,

HANDS IN YOUR HAIR, FINGERS AND THUMBS, BABY

I FEEL SAFE WHEN YOUR HOLDING ME NEAR,

LOVE THE WAY YOU COMFORT MY FEARS

YOU KNOW HEARTS DON'T BREAK AROUND HERE..."

Jolee's love language is definitely words of affirmation.

The video ends there and yes, my eyes were sweating.

It matters, those little things we do....

It matters....

The dermatologist

 I have often spoken about 

"The person I see in the mirror is not the one who lives in my head"

I, like many see the deep lines, wrinkles.

I think of Botox and if it would help the deep  lines on my forehead.

You see I have no problem with aging,

growing old except my forehead lines are sooo deep compared to 

even many my age and older.

So I make the dermatology appointment all the while thinking,

"Am I vain?" "Should I really be throwing this money away?"

"What will we find out about botox 10 years from now that 

we maybe should have known sooner"

Even with all this in my mind, I show up for the appointment.

I explain to the dermatologist all the above.

She takes a good look at my skin, my face, my forehead

and she says, "Let me tell you what I think about this problem"

She goes on to explain that I am right, most of my forehead wrinkles

are deeper than some, more so than some people older than me

but that tells her a lot.

Now I am becoming concerned, am I going to find out I am dying

on the day I decide I need botox?

She continues:

This tells me that you use these muscles for expression more than most.

They are deeper because you smile a lot and 

become animated when you are speaking.

You live a life of many emotions and you are not afraid to show it.

Those lines are representation of the kind of life and love

you show to those around you.

OKay......

She goes on to explain, she will do the Botox but 

I should know that it is temporary and it will change my character

for a few months.

A dermatologist not looking for an extra buck,

who took the time to tell me how she felt about the treatment.

I leave without the Botox, even brushing my bangs off my forehead.

Because I love deep and I live deep why should my aging be any different.

When I am no longer here on Earth,

not many will remember my insecurity I had at almost 60 

about my forehead wrinkles.

Instead, I hope they remember that when I told a story

it was literally

"All over my face".