BELATED MOTHERS DAY THOUGHTS

My Mothers Day officially ended yesterday

evening, when gypsy and her girl Del, visited.

Over the last few days, I have thought much of

the holiday of Mothers Day.

Small, one day holidays are sometimes over rated 

to me, mostly because it can become stressful

trying to get all the people you think of when you 

say the word Mother, in a one day visit.

However, me and the boo... we did it,

we spent brunch at Cracker Barrel with his sweet

Momma, Mrs. Barbara along with his brother

and his family. Then to Kd's parents for lunch

with my baby boy, my KD and the grand girls.

Now my thoughts, Mother, something I, for 

many years, didn't think I would ever be able

to share with other Mothers.

Having been a childhood cancer survivor, told

I would never have children and to find out

nine months into a marriage that I was pregnant,

well, it was just a miracle to me.

Four years later, his sister came into my world 

and changed it forever.

They are my children, mine, and I adore them both

for who they are, for the way they are,

Yet, being their Mother is wild, they are so

different. I have Baby boy, who I see with his three

little girls and I could melt watching the love he

has for them. Just this same weekend he danced on

stage with the Bean for her recital and I beamed 

with pride for my child. 

He is overprotective of me in a quiet way,

always wanting to help me with household projects.

He, as I grow older will be my

"SUNNY-DO"

Last night, spending a few hours with my gypsy baby,

so different from her brother, being the 

first to say, "I am not a maternal person except for my dog"

"I know I am selfish" However, I want to say to her,

it's not selfish when you know what you want,

how you want to live your life and verbally state it.

So many feel this way and do not have the courage

to admit this, It is why I admire her so much!

One of the many ways. I know she will be 

"MY KEEPER" 

when the time comes that I need help medically, she

will be the one to care for me as she has had

to do over the years when I was ill.

No matter how old she is, We will always be comfortable,

laying in the same bed, reading, talking, etc.

She is the best daughter I could have had for me.

Then there is my daughter in law, my KD,

as I have always said about her

"I could not have hand picked a girl better for my son".

I will forever keep a medallion she gave me as a gift

a few years ago stating,

"THANK YOU FOR RAISING THE MAN OF OUR DREAMS"

It always makes me proud to be her Mother in law.

A few weeks ago, baby boy being at work,

Kd, coming home from a busy work day only 

to have to hurriedly get Bean ready for dance practice

while the other two were screaming for her attention.

Kd came out of the bathroom where she was dressing

bean and seem flustered, Bean not having been the nicest 

to her Mommy that day, I had Bean ride with me to

dance and I told her a few things, one being

"GEE, (I sometimes call her this)

 you have to realize their are three women in this

world who not only will always love and have your back

no matter what happens, but will love you 

unconditionally, always: Me, your Mumsie, Maw Maw Cathy,

and last but not least your dear Mother"

That night, I am laying in bed and I find this small writing,

and I send it to my DIL, as I feel its something she needed 

to hear that day:

MAMA,

YOU  WERE GIVEN THESE CHILDREN - YOU.

NO ONE ELSE.

YOU WERE GIVEN THESE CHILDREN BECAUSE

YOU ARE WHO THEY NEED.

YOU HAVE THE SOUL TO LOVE THEM

EVEN ON THEIR HARD DAYS.

YOU HAVE THE MOTIVATION AND LOVE

TO GIVE THESE CHILDREN EVERYTHING THEY NEED.

YOU HAVE THE HEART TO WAKE UP EVERY

MORNING AND TO DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN,

EVEN WHEN YOU ARE EXHAUSTED.

YOU HAVE THE SMILE THAT THEY CRAVE

AND THE TOUCH TO MAKE EVERYTHING OKAY.

YOU ARE THEIR SUNSHINE AND

THEIR COMFORT. 

YOU ARE THEIRS AND THEY ARE YOURS.

MOMMA.

ON THE DAYS YOU ARE QUESTIONING YOURSELF,

REMEMBER.....

YOU GOT THIS.

How beautiful? Have we, as Mothers not all had a

point in our Mothering that we needed to hear these

very same words? I know I have.

I have shared how being mother to my children has 

completed me as a woman. I find myself now finding

time to nurture my own new relationships and

home business and getting the moral support 

from my grown children. Their understanding

of where my life is right now is something

I have needed so much and I have not told them that.

Thank you, my babies, for understanding that

I have given you two all of me for the last 30 

something years and now I must be able to nurture

my next phase of life. It has not been easy these last 4 years

but we have stayed strong, and have come out on 

the other side still whole and loving each other.

Although you two will always be loved by me

unconditionally and that I will also always

be on your side of the ring, I now must

find my own life as a Mother to adult children,

giving myself some time to be a tad selfish so to 

have myself a life I can grow into as I become an

older woman. Thank You, my babies, for trying

your best to understand this.

Last but not least,

I remain with the pillow covered with the pillow case

that my own Mother laid her head on the last day she

was with us, I have yet to wash that case, don't see myself

ever washing it, Why not, you may ask?

Because, if, like I did on Mothers Day morning,

put my nose deeply into the folds of that pillow and

smell deeply, I can still smell her, and as it is with me,

a smell can take me back to places of when she was 

still here with me. I was blessed with the best Momma for me

and I pray that as the years pass, my babies, and their own

babies will think of me lovingly and admiringly

when they smell the scent of Clinique Aromatics body lotion,

and feel the warmth of the love of their own Mother.

HAPPY BELATED MOTHERS DAY TO ALL YOU MOMMY'S!