I HAVE NOT WROTE A BLOG IN A WHILE.
YET, THE LAST FEW DAYS HAS ME IN TURMOIL
OVER THE DEATH OF
CHARLIE KIRK.
IF YOU KNOW ME AND READ MY BLOG,
YOU KNOW I HAVE NO MALICIOUS INTENT
TO ANYONE, EVER.
WHERE MY WORDS TO THOSE CLOSE TO ME
ARE MOST OFTEN THOSE OF
"THERE IS GOOD AND BAD IN EVERYONE"
WHEN CONFRONTED WITH ONE VISION,
I TRY TO COME UP WITH ANOTHER SIDE TO THINK OF.
WHILE I HAVE MY DAUGHTER AND DIL
WHO ARE BOTH GAY, IT IS HARD FOR ME TO
THINK OF MY CHILD GOING TO BE EVERY NIGHT
WORRYING ABOUT THE STATE OF HER MARRIAGE.
MANY SAY IT WILL NOT HAPPEN,
HOWEVER, JUST THE THOUGHT THAT THEY WOULD
LOOSE SLEEP OVER SUCH A THING DOESN'T SIT WELL WITH ME.
I ALSO HAVE A SON AND DIL,
WHO IN ALL THEIR TIME, THEY ARE JUST TRYING
TO GET THROUGH EVERY BUSY DAY THAT COMES
FROM RAISING THREE GRANDGIRLS TO THE
BEST OF THEIR ABILITY.
WHAT REMAINS MOST IMPORTANT TO ME
IS THE UNITY OF FAMILY,
THAT MY CHILDREN, WHETHER THEY SEE THINGS
THE SAME OR THEY DON'T THEY CAN
COME TO A CONSENSUS TO STILL CONTINUE TO
LOVE AND RESPECT EACH OTHER FOR THEIR BELIEFS
IT IS MY MOTHERS WISH FOR THEM.
YESTERDAY I WAS NOT PREPARED FOR JOLEE'S
QUESTION,
"MUMSIE, DID YOU HEAR ABOUT CHARLIE KIRK GETTING SHOT?"
OF COURSE THEY KNOW OF THIS,
THEY HAVE CELL PHONES, THEY HAVE INTERNET,
ITS THE ONLY THING OUT THERE.
I DIDN'T KNOW CHARLIE BEFORE THIS INCIDENT.
IN THE LAST THREE DAYS I HAVE LEARNED WHAT
OTHERS HAVE TO SAY ABOUT HIM, GOOD AND BAD.
MY THOUGHTS EVERY DAY SINCE HAS BEEN THAT
OF HE, HIS FAMILY AND THE FATE OF OUR COUNTRY.
IS IT REALLY A PENDULUM, SWINGING BACK AND FORTH?
WAS IT THIS BAD DURING VIETNAM AND THE JFK ERA?
WHAT WOULD HAVE THE 60'S BEEN LIKE HAD
THERE BEEN INTERNET, ETC.?
I AM ALSO KNOWN TO NOT HAVE A LEGIT TV IN MY HOME.
THE NEWS OF THE WORLD FRIGHTENS ME AND I FIND MYSELF
ON THE ONE HAND GLAD THAT I AM IN MY LAST QUARTER OF LIFE
AND WON'T HAVE TO SEE WHAT BECOMES OF THIS EARTH
AND COMPLETE FEAR OVER WHAT WILL BE FOR
MY FAMILY IN THE FUTURE.
I WEAR "ROSE COLORED GLASSES"
I AM TOLD AND PERHAPS IT IS TRUE.
THINGS THAT KEEP ME UP AT NIGHT HAVE TO BE SPOKEN ABOUT.
THIS DEATH IS MORE THAN JUST ONE MAN BEING SHOT.
IT IS ABOUT MOVEMENTS IN THE WORLD,
CAN THE DEATH OF ONE MAN SWING THE PENDULUM
TO WHERE WE CAN LIVE IN A COUNTRY THAT
DOES NOT JUDGE OTHERS FOR THEIR BELIEFS?
PERHAPS NOT IDK, BUT FOR ME,
KEEPING IT CLOSE TO HOME, I TELL MY DAUGHTER AND DIL,
I AM VERY THANKFUL THAT IN THIS COTTAGE,
WE CAN AGREE TO DISAGREE AND NOT LOVE EACH
OTHER LESS BECAUSE OF IT.
I TELL MY LITTLE GRANDGIRLS,
NO ONE DESERVES TO DIE FOR WHAT THEY BELIEVE IN.
"THAT THERE IS GOOD AND BAD IN EVERYONE
AND SOMETIMES WE HAVE TO LOOK FOR THE GOOD".
IN A WORLD WHERE YOU HAVE TO QUESTION EVERYTHING,
WHETHER IT IS REAL OR AI, THERE ARE LITTLE PEOPLE
BELIEVING WHAT THEY SEE ON THEIR PHONES.
I AM VERY THANKFUL THAT WHEN THE GRANDGIRLS
WERE VERY LITTLE I MADE THE COTTAGE RULE
OF NO INTERNET, NO TV, WE WILL DO THINGS,
ENJOY EACH OTHERS COMPANY.
OF COURSE, AS THEY GET OLDER THE RULES HAVE
CHANGED SOME, BUT YESTERDAY NOT
JOLEE OR JEMMA BROUGHT A PHONE OR A TABLET.
WE SAT AROUND TALKED ABOUT BALANCING SCALES
AND PLAYED GAMES.
FOR THAT SHORT WHILE MY MIND WAS OFF OF THE
NEWS OF TODAY AS IT WAS FOR THEM.
MAY THIS COUNTRY FEEL THE MOVEMENT OF
OF LESSENING OUR SOCIAL MEDIA.
LET MEALS BE PHONE FREE, WHETHER IN YOUR HOME OR
A RESTARAUNT.
SPEAK TO THE PEOPLE AT THE TABLE.
I AM ALSO QUILTY OF TOO MUCH SOCIAL MEDIA
WHILE IN MY HEART, I KNOW TOO MUCH OF THIS
IS NOT GOOD, I HAVE YET TO BREAK MY OWN CYCLE
OF GETTING UP AND FIRST CHECKING MY PHONE.
I KNOW, ITS A VERY RANDOM AND ALL OVER THE PLACE BLOG
BUT ITS WHERE MY HEAD HAS BEEN SINCE 9/10.
I HOPE THAT IN PUTTING DOWN SOME OF MY THOUGHTS
I CAN FIND A PLACE FOR IT ALL IN MY WORLD.
WHETHER WE AGREE OR AGREE TO DISAGREE WITH THE
BELIEFS OF CHARLEY KIRK,
HE WILL ALWAYS BE REMEMBERED AS A MARTYR.
" A PERSON WHO IS KILLED BECAUSE OF HIS RELIGIOUS
OR OTHER BELIEFS"
HE WILL GO DOWN WITH OTHERS WHO STOOD UP FOR
WHAT THEY BELIEVED IN,
ABRAHAM LINCOLN, JFK, MARTIN LUTHER KING
AND A HOST OF OTHERS.
MAY HIS FAMILY FIND PEACE AND MAY OUR
WORLD ALSO FIND THE SAME PEACE.
